A dilemma for Wilensky, dramatized throughout the book, is her struggle to separate herself as person from herself as a cornucopia of movements and obsessive thoughts. Wilensky writes, "It had occurred to me that, if released from all my rituals—the deeply engrained counting, sorting, hoarding, and checking that were as much a part of my life as getting dressed in the morning, eating dinner at night—I actually became someone else, someone who might resemble me, share defining aspects of me, but who was, when it came down to it, not really me at all."