The Gift is the story of the author's third, successful, ten-month treatment. She reluctantly entered treatment again, motivated partly by wanting to become a psychotherapist. Morally and ethically, she knew she needed to heal herself before treating others. She had obsessive suicidal ideation with vivid images of the act of self-harming. She was affectively detached. She trusted only her primary care doctor. She was disconnected from herself, despite many substantial successes in her life: education, military experience, good jobs, marriage, and a child. Ms. Mountain describes a life of outward perfection and a separate internal world of pain, loneliness, and emotional isolation.