One of my symptoms was agoraphobia, which developed in 2007. I went from a deep, dark loneliness where I didn't want anyone to leave my presence to seeking time alone in the refuge of my house. My demons were in control there, but agoraphobia is a hell unto its own. People did not understand my behavior. I knew my behavior was crazy, but I couldn't be any way but agoraphobic. During my agoraphobia, I experienced spontaneous energy drops. I would begin a day with plenty of energy and then quickly lose momentum. I was traveling a vicious cycle. In time and with more intensive psychotherapy, my energy slowly returned. My resilience increased with the momentum of each day's progress toward recovery, and my improved libido was now becoming part of my relationships. The depression had taken away all desire for intimacy, when it was all kinds of intimacy I needed in order to recover. As I improved, I was able to experience intimacy rather than isolation.