By that time I was actively hallucinating, but I developed coping mechanisms that kept me working, except during times that my husband (who is a psychiatrist), my psychiatrist, and I agreed that I needed to back off for everybody's safety. I have always been careful to keep my patients' well-being in mind, sometimes to a fault. My superiors and peers always knew my diagnosis, and I was sensitive to their feedback. I was, however, turning into a good general psychiatrist. I went into a private practice that I found rewarding and avoided hospitalization for about 15 years, although the symptoms of auditory hallucinations and occasional suicidal ideation still occurred. I did find those symptoms difficult to manage, especially at night, because they interrupted regular sleeping habits.